For The Underdogs

30 Jul

…Who could really use a wish right now!

Some days I’m tired. And fed up! And sick of being so tired and so fed up. But I know no matter what, I can’t give up! You wonder what the point of it all is. It’s always one thing or another and you’ve had enough. But in the midst of all that crazy mess, something happens and you get through the day. And then another day. And another.

Sometimes you cry and through the tears you feel pain, a strong tugging pain that feels like it will never go away. And before you know it, you catch yourself smiling, laughing and you forget that you were supposed to be crying over something that just doesn’t matter right now. Some days I just stop. Literally, I can’t go on. Feeling lost and confused, I don’t know which way to turn. Then somehow, I find myself moving along the path.

Some days we get angry and full of bitterness at the wrong that was done to us, adamant that we’ll never forgive! Then somehow we hear soft words that melt the ice-box where our hearts supposed to be and we find a way to love again. Sometimes I find myself alone, without a friend insight. Feeling neglected and rejected. Then in the presence of my lone company, the mist clears and I see the shadows of people waiting to be called.

Some days, you try. You dream and believe. You work so hard and mix in a little faith yet, you see no results and there are no rewards for your efforts. You give up! But somehow you find yourself dreaming on another day; doing something different, believing… It’s only a matter of time.

Some days there’s a knot in our throat. We’re choked by the words we won’t speak and unable to comprehensively articulate the truth that resides within. And somehow, words flow through our fingertips, a weight is released from our shoulders and we hear our voice.

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How do we do it? The days keep coming and going. But in spite of the tears, the fears, the loneliness, the failures, the struggles, we keep going. Not because we know how it’ll all work out, but because we have no other choice but to HOPE; something innate compels us to trust that understanding and acceptance will come with time. Sometimes, for a VERY long time it may be a sad story, a heart-breaking one where it doesn’t seem the clouds will clear or the sun will shine again. You may cry more times than you smile. You may fail more times than you succeed. Lose more than you receive. Hurt more than love. Break down more times than keep it together. Be alone more than in company. Hold tighter to the past than let go and move on. Be discouraged more times than inspired. Feel pain more than be healed. Be grudged and not forgiven. Be angry, frustrated, lost and confused more than at peace.

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Rainbows are made by sun and rain! Artwork by Jill Battaglia http://fineartamerica.com/featured/woman-on-dock-in-storm-jill-battaglia.html

 

And that’s OK! When you find yourself not being okay, remember it’ll be okay one day. And if only for one day, that too is okay. Because all you need is ONE day! One day that you’re okay is more compelling than a thousand days of being broken, hurt, drowning in sorrows, frustrated at life, crippled and confused. Don’t let bad days make you feel like you have a bad life because a good day is a small step in the right direction. Once the storm is over, you won’t even remember how you made it through, but you’ll know that THAT ONE DAY, surely made a difference!

images6DLSTAHO “I wish I was strong enough to lift, not one but both of us.

Someday I will be strong enough, to lift not one but both of us.”

Ms Tola xx

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2 Responses to “For The Underdogs”

  1. http:www.motherhoodtherealdeal.com September 24, 2015 at 7:44 pm #

    What a lovely post Tola and one that I so needed to read right about now. Are you on Twitter my lovely? x

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    • thoughtchannel September 24, 2015 at 7:57 pm #

      Thanks Talya. Glad you like. Well done us on getting on with writing and motherhood. Yes I’m on twitter it’s akamstola! Xx

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